mercy has no rhythm
i m on the verge of an emotional breakdown.
complications - they come to me. i take them. pockets full of 'em that i ve even saved some for my soul, just in case. not at all myself today. though happier and healthier i m filled to the brim with inexplicable guilt. i m dog paddling through the mess in my head. my interior has no fire left anymore. i feel as if i am in a perpetual state of mourning. i’m always the easiest to discard by people. friends that once shone like street lights on a lonely night guiding are now ebbing and slowly dieing.
i m sorry. i ve an exam tomorrow. and i know shit. two days ago i was shit studying day night and now i dont even care bout the bloody exam.
i do well with fleeting moments. constancy is too much for me to wrap my tired arms around. so i ll dwell in the depths of this. alone. but damn me, i m still trying to grasp what has come undone. this is going to be a loongg one. this is a gift for a forgetful blunder. i still ve no regrets.
i love you and i m afraid if i ll ever say this to anyone and really mean it. period.
i need a smoke.
complications - they come to me. i take them. pockets full of 'em that i ve even saved some for my soul, just in case. not at all myself today. though happier and healthier i m filled to the brim with inexplicable guilt. i m dog paddling through the mess in my head. my interior has no fire left anymore. i feel as if i am in a perpetual state of mourning. i’m always the easiest to discard by people. friends that once shone like street lights on a lonely night guiding are now ebbing and slowly dieing.
i m sorry. i ve an exam tomorrow. and i know shit. two days ago i was shit studying day night and now i dont even care bout the bloody exam.
i do well with fleeting moments. constancy is too much for me to wrap my tired arms around. so i ll dwell in the depths of this. alone. but damn me, i m still trying to grasp what has come undone. this is going to be a loongg one. this is a gift for a forgetful blunder. i still ve no regrets.
i love you and i m afraid if i ll ever say this to anyone and really mean it. period.
i need a smoke.
5 Comments:
oh jaaan, why are you and I feeling the same exact thing abhi?
I wanna hug you so badly.
yes I am trying solitude aaj kal, i hope it works.
Good luck for the exam, I will pray for you too.
take care babe
uh-oh *raises eyebrows*
haha how sweet :0)
be introspective and try to find happiness from smallest and simplest things in life. I also had similar moments in past. I tell ya there are only two REAL best friends for me.. one is books and other is me, myself!!
the internet just stopped working all of a sudden
i kept waiting for like half an hour and i realised an hour or so had passed and i was dosing off with my head on the computer table
with the internet still not back,i decided to take a proper nap
still a bit down with flu though,wohi same shit
and no,there wasnt any sofoo,i guess she ran away with balaji :\
luck for your exam
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