theres a common thread of self-sabotage i see in my conscious, and in meself. we have to reach that point where we are so rock-sure of what we want that we just do it. it is very hard to get to that place, especially when we keep putting obstacles into our own paths. but once you do, life is very much simple.

Sleep comes like a drug/
In God's Country
- In God's country, U2

no idea how much i can relate to this nowadays. i sleep like a dead dog. not that i always used to. but its likes a mystery now. i sleep wherever i see a bed. not only for 1 or 2 hours. straight solid 5 or 6 hours. the hours are odd. morning, evening, night, late night, you name it. i can sleep at anytime of the day :S this is actually good (in one way), i dont have to think 'bout smoking since i m fasting and i cant smoke in the middle of the day....

i've been extra cranky lately. its no secret that i’m NOT a fan of the early rise and even less a fan of crowded jail road. something is bothering me really nowadays and believe me many people have gueesed what is it really but none of 'em true. this is typical me. what i REALLY want does not exist. at least not in drugs and thoughts of ill digest. i just hope that this will dull or at least shrink for now. the sting of not knowing drowns all hope thoughts they float, to the surface.

"Life begins when you accept your fate."
-The Process of Belief, Bad Religion

Grr... i ve a class to catch now...