the painful scream that i heard last

i ve lived a lil part of my life on a thin line between skeptimisim and pessimisim. in my opinion happy endings dont exist which we re all in search of somehow or the other. because the spark, fire we desperately hang on too goes away. i usually expected things to go wrong and when they did i patted meself on the back for expecting it and when it didnt i wrote it off to someone elses good luck never believing it to happen again. but no, today, i for one want things to turn out good for me. grr.. i need a sign thats gonna say its gonna happen and then i will wait for it, patiently, forever if it takes. because every minute of it will be worth it later and i know that.

and look even the yahoo horoscope people agree:
A casual interest develops into something else entirely when you see it in a whole new light. If this happens to be a person, a lighthearted relationship could take a turn and become far more intense and meaningful. Your intense focus will open a brand-new avenue of expression that you didn't know was possible.

i might not sleep regretting it... but useless. twice the moment came and went and i never knew what was happening. arghh...for the moment, all i can do is sit back like a moron....

boy, do i feel ranty today :S

jee, all of you need to know one fact that the 80s are gonna be back and will probably stay for good. and that once music was about dancing and having a good time. like you cant go head banging on your own sisters wedding :|

background music: fool in the rain by led zeppelin