phase1: despression.

listening to nnothing else matters - metallica

listening to this *best* song nowadays alot again.

OKay. Today, was a fair day until i reached home and view my SATII score. Oh, I'm so lost right now. I feel like a good-for-nothing (which is some what true). I dont even feel like thinking 'bout giving my SAT again. I dont wanna give it. I just cant give it. What if i cant do it again next time? =S There is no next time. I dont wanna spoil my mood. Please, everybody just tell me i can do it next time. Please, tell me this is not the end of the world. This will spoil my basant. This will spoil my mood. I dont want it that way.

I got myself a new hair cut today. Met taimoor usman people fo' a lil while. Treated myself with a new studd. I'll upload the orginal pics soon. It looks like this but in silver titanium material:



I wanted to get one like this but since they didnt have it I'd to buy the other one:



Went to aitchisons gig night which wasnt bad. I was expecting something better but oh well. It doesnt even matter now. Someone played coming back to life. That song still takes away my breath. And hotel california. A few other songs by jal. But coming back to life was awesome. Met shemrez.

And now i'm depress but i'm trying my best not to. My mothers being really cool bout it and so is salwa but i know its not right and ohhhh...kill me. I need a huggg. Big onee.

so close no matter how far.